Some days I lie on my bed, I stare at the ceiling with my imagination so beyond my sight.
I will lie on your chest with your heartbeat. And while you talk, I can hear your familiar voice from your heart and not from your lips. It's even more clearer perhaps sweeter.
Some days I relive our future goodbye. From time to time it hurts-like 100x hesitation and a thousand more painful than skype date goodbyes.
A mix of fear,pain and sheer happiness.
Fear that it might be the last. Pain like those kind of sudden goodbyes from a flare of emotions- a kind of pain only you can give. Happiness, because finally my imaginary hugs and kisses were real. The texture of your skin, your hair and your smell... I have it finally. I have it not just on the screen.
Yet like everyday. I will always end my day with you like its the last. I will always tell you. I will always hopefully try ways to show to you. I want you to know I couldn't imagine in its entirety of ending a day with issues unresolved if ever we have in the future. And like I told and wrote you. I will learn and grow learning with you.
Some days without you because of technological betrayal.
Some days I find my self alone with you in my thoughts. Some growing fear. Some nostalgia of wanting to hear your voice even more.
Some day like today- this day is a bit longer.
I hope you stay. Come home with me some day. You can fly but you can always stay.
Love like watching a bird fly and the joy it brings when it comes back and stay. ♡
Missing you more than ever especially with this kind of a day.
